you gotta tell us your story sometime when you feel like it

You make a few inaccurate assumptions there Silvershine.

Yup, I've been fucked over by people very close to me I've trusted before. BIGTIME.
I've not had the followed by professionals bit but I have discovered vile, long term lies and misrepresentations of me I had no clue about previously and any attempts to counter those being interpreted as defensive bs. You can't win.

So yeah, I can understand generally where you might be at the moment.
I won't patronise you with lectures or advice about trying to rise above it or getting your life back together.
That will hopefully come at it's own pace. Sure you'll have scars but hopefully the wounds will stop seeping and heal over enough to function again.

I do however have no reservations in stating or reassuring you that I have not witnessed what you thought you perceived here.
I'm certainly fallible and may have missed something but at present I have no evidence for that mate. (or I would say so).

We do have to accept though that people may have very polarised views and debate can get a bit warm but we also try to have an atmosphere of self-moderation and respect for each other. So if a thread is getting to hot, or frustrating, I suggest, leave it.
It will fade into the past.

Hang about man, it's a decent group of folks here. The occasional hair-tugging is just rough play.